In order to prepare for my upcoming mission trip to the Middle East I have been reflecting on my time spent in the Middle East last year. I journaled every day so that I could remember every detail of the trip that impacted my life in a mighty way. I want to share my journal entry from the first day because I learned that I must rely on God for everything so that I could be used for his glory.
Day One (Journal Entry)
Yesterday I began my flight from America and today I landed in the Middle East. I was not nervous for this trip at all, in fact I was excited until I landed. I believe that it is partially because my mom had to part from our team but really, I am under a spiritual attack. I have suddenly become very fearful of my current situation. I feel alone. It is true that the Middle East is a dark and evil place. However the light shines brightest in the dark. There is still hope when the people should be hopeless. I have this weird feeling in my stomach and for some reason I have a feeling that this trip is going to be boring. I am not really sure of what to expect out of this trip but I pray that God will use the team to do mighty things. While driving through the city I began praying for restoration in the city. I also began to pray that my heart would be compassionate towards the muslims (this is hard but I know I have to be compassionate because God calls us to be disciples of ALL nations). We are to love those who persecute us and we are to pray for them.My biggest concern in all of this is my attitude. I have no clue what is going on. Lord take this feeling from me. Help me to fully trust you.
“The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? When evildoers assail me to eat up my flesh, my adversaries and foes, it is they who stumble and fall. Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war arise against me, yet I will be confident.” (Psalm 27:1-3)
Let this scripture be my cry to you Lord. I do not know what is going on so Holy Spirit please speak for me! I am in the presence of evil. Let me be the light in the darkness. Give me strength and courage father. Thank you for blessing me with this opportunity. I know that you are the one and only true God. Do your will please. Use Me. Give me wisdom. Give me the courage to share the gospel. I pray that you would give sight to the spiritually blind. Thank you for funding this trip. Please give me peace. Amen
The first sentence of my journal entry for the next day was the following: “Today God gave me peace and joy.” The rest of the trip ended up being the best two weeks of my life. I had the privilege of being the hands and feet of Jesus Christ to Syrian refugee children. God completely changed my heart. In fact I cried for hours when I left. No matter the situation that you are in God is there. You have to open your hands and give him your worries. We as humans can not truly overcome anything without God. God is bigger and better than our greatest worries. He is the only one who can turn our anxiety and misery into joy. If He can hold the whole universe in his hand wouldn’t he be able to help us with our hectic life?
Please be praying that God will use the mission team to do mighty things this year. Pray that the team would continue to prepare and abide in christ. Pray that the Holy Spirit would move in radical ways.